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Jesus, my blog is useless for its full of vague messages... because for the most part I only expect you to understand everything I pour out here.

Am I wrong to feel this disturbed about it? Maybe because the person who confided in me is a strong person and I'm not seeing her break down and reveal her weakness in front of me or maybe its because what led me to discover about this appalling information is through a social network I don't have a lot of respect for. I don't need to hear the words to confirm that it might be a facade, I should already know it.

How could it happen? I really couldn't believe the words I was reading as it registered in my brain. It seems so unthinkable yet its fact. Anger came first. And then it hit me, I am so disgusted by the thought of it. I felt sympathetic, repulsed, indignant, and I became emotional. I realized that I could use all the bad words to describe that other person involved, but the feeling I get by the thought of that other person committing such act is indescribable. Maybe right now I'm being too much, but I am highly disturbed by all of this. I have never felt so uncomfortable and anxious just hearing her say that word.