hi. :)

I'm gonna write something more positive tonight. Hello blog, I know you've missed me a lot. I've been here for a very long time yet ever since that new year's post I have not talked about...me. How am I doing? Well, lately... I'm not sure.

This morning, I have never been so tired, yet I felt good when I sent messages to people I care about that I haven't talked to lately. Enough to give me energy, enough to make other people smile despite how exhausted I felt physically on another monday morning. I've been feeling drained of energy more emotionally these past few days, that I've forgotten to just pause and enjoy what's in front of me. Not to seem corny, but I have missed myself the most. I don't mean that I've been hiding behind a mask or something emo like that, I just haven't been doing things for myself. It's funny, my eyes were ready to shut this morning, yet I felt great. I was in such good spirit after the realization.

I am blessed. I still am. I just realized how much I've let myself get caught up with certain things, small and big, that I've forgotten to appreciate and enjoy what I have.

Jesus, I miss church. I miss hearing your word. I never left empty everytime I went. You hear my every thought, you understand every single thing I need You to. Thank you for being there for me. Even though I make countless mistakes, I confuse myself and I fall. I get right back up and I move  forward always feeling like I gained something more.