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iPad and writing.

Thank you Lord for my iPad. I'm seriously enjoying how it sparks creativity within me not only in my personal bussiness affairs (school and work ;)) but also in things that interest me a lot. Reading, writing, and surprisingly  in my art (mainly drawing). I enjoy this technology so much.

so much more i'm yet to discover that I can do on this piece of technology. 

Jesus you know I've been an avid reader since years ago of underground writers that post on the internet, fiction and non fiction a like. There are so many talented writers out there that are not famous at all. Remember after finishing a really good fic, I would wish that it would be published because then I'd surely buy them? well I can do that now, I can turn them into pdf files and read them on iBooks. I'm so elated, so thank you Jesus for making this happen! I'm a nerd and I don't care. :)

I'll take it and I won't cry. No matter what.

I'm so tired of school. I don't know if I'll ever graduate. Time and Money are against me. :(

I'm so tired and depressed. And I feel so bad inside, and all the while I'm texting my boyfriend words of encouragement because he's feeling pressure from school also. Only he's graduating this summer and I'm so far off. (T-T)

FML is so overused, but I feel like this is a perfect FML moment. Oh God Help me!

The greatest blessing God gave my family. :)

I Love him. Thank you Jesus.

Dear Mateo,

You are amazing. Aunty loves you so much. Thank you for coming to our lives.

Love,
Ninang

And Jesus, Thank you for answering my prayers. I Love You.

I'm already getting teary at the thought that I won't be there when my sister gives birth. I'm going to be an Aunty finally!!!!

God, please take care of my sister for a safe and healthy delivery! I can't wait to welcome my nephew, and possibly Godchild!!! :D

funny...

I remember in 2006 I was not doing so well. It was the year I felt the most insecure of myself.. felt like I wasn't good enough. But God really works in mysterious ways, it was almost as if when he was creating this scene of my life, he had a smile on his face. Last night, I found this picture when I stumbled upon old discs that I saved old pictures on. honestly, I thought I had lost them forever. I was looking through my graduation pictures and I unexpectedly found this picture. My initial thoughts were, what in the world?! How is it even possible I had a picture with this guy whom I was never friends with and could barely remember having at least one conversation with in high school. We were never anything back then...

Who would've thought that five years later. It'd be us? :)

At that period of time, I had so many questions, I didn't realize you were already pointing me to a new direction. Thank you Jesus, I love him so and even though it took us five years, it was well worth the wait. ^_^ 

I can see myself growing old with my boyfriend. :) where else will I find someone who'd rather stay on the phone with me and think of ways for me to have something to eat just cause I couldn't go out to get food and I had limited ingredients to make anything... I LOVE HIM so much Jesus, thank you for giving him to me.

Dear Jesus,

Reading the posts below is so embarrassing hehe. I have so much to tell you, I have so much to share yet the words aren't coming. 

The last time I came to church I had forgotten my notebook once again. I haven't written in it in a while, I'm not quite sure where it is either. You know what came over me then? Is that despite the little distance thats come over us these past months, You're still there for me. 

I want to go back to not worrying so much. When praising you, communicating with you always made me feel whole. You still shower me with blessings that I'm very grateful for. I believe in you Lord, and I know that whatever worries I may have, I will conquer it with You by my side, surrounded with all the wonderful people you have blessed me with in life. 

I witness all the blessings you've showered those who believe in you, and I feel happy for them. I have so much to be grateful for, then I stop and realize, that I'm to be thankful everyday.

My posts have not been the best maybe that's why I haven't been back in awhile. I talked of the unpleasant times in my relationship, when I should be writing about my amazing relationship with the Love you sent to me. We trip, we fall, but we get right back up... we're still together and everyday we grow. Doesn't that line remind you Jesus of a familiar line I've used many times in this blog, 'I fall but I get right back up' now it's we... but one thing has not changed, I still pray you guide our relationship since that day I've placed it in your hands.

I pray that you take care of my sister's baby and her health, so that she can have a safe delivery! Thank you for blessing our family. Also, please take good care of my parents and brothers. I pray for all the important people in my lives every night along with their family and it makes me feel better.

I Love You Lord! :D

 

 

Dear God,

I Love YOU! My faith in you is not easily swayed. That's probably why I have such strong faith in this relationship. That's why I asked you to take care of it.

I wished his faith was just as strong as mine. But he gives up so easily.

Now he's attacking my self-esteem. I love him very much and I want to be with him.

"Love is rare, grab it." I grab it grab it grab it. But now I'm learning that they need to grab me grab me grab me too. Because no matter if I don't want to leave, I realized it's possible to lose me too. In the 23 years of my life, I always believed that I'll always be the one to lose something. But now, I see how much I try, how much I take... and I realized I am good enough, that I'm worth something... that he who has me, shouldn't want to lose me too.

Please don't give up. I won't either. I'm far from from giving up. Because I believe that this is a blessing, it needs patience and understanding because to me its worth while. 

 

fall time and red lips. :)